Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Finding Your True Self

I'm beginning to understand just how much I've changed over the years.

It's freaking me out, just a little.

A recent tour of the websites, blogs and pages I'm reading and learning from gave me quite the wake-up call.

My eating habits:

https://www.facebook.com/survivalplantsmemorycourse

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Mushrooms-of-Colorado/373318174797

http://theveganstoner.blogspot.com/


Where I plan on living the rest of my days:



My next horse: 




What I'm doing with my dog:


My next dog, and what we're going o do:




What I thought I wanted:


What I actually day dream about: 







Who I thought I was: 

Who I've become:


Sheesh.

27 comments:

Heather said...

:-) The midlife realization. It's not a crisis really, it's a realization about what you REALLY have and what you REALLY want. It's an eye-opener and a good thing. That's how I found my way back to horses - I suddenly realized that I was trying to fill a hole in my life with everything but the right thing. The first minute I walked into that barn and smelled "that smell" I knew I'd found what I'd been seeking and I've never looked back.

Anonymous said...

“Midlife is the time to let go of an over dominant ego and to contemplate the deeper significance of human existence.”
― C.G. Jung

“Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.” – Carl Bard

Lana said...
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Lana said...

I'm about to hit another birthday this coming Tuesday and that always leads me to some introspection. I'll be 32, still a baby I know, and it's amazing how much I've changed in the past couple of years. Marriage, kid, and a steady job will do that to you.

And also feists are some of the very best dogs ever. They also cross well. I've had two feist/English shepard crosses and they are some of the best dogs ever. Both looked like a sheltie and were smart as a whip. We used them to work cows and they will tree squirrels and other varmits too!

*deleted my other comment, needed to edit what I had said.*

Anonymous said...

Hey, I live in a city, and am married, so I'm stuck here. I'd love to live in that shack off the grid, but that is not about to happen. I am grateful for all the great things I do have.

redhorse said...

That was the best laugh of the day. I've been thinking something along those lines myself.

zebradreams07 said...

I'm 24 and already there. What the hell is MY midlife crisis gonna look like??

Francis said...

I am not sure its a midlife crisis.. but it is a crisis that we are reacting to, and don't think you are alone .. the more I look around, the more people are talking along the same lines. Oh heck, maybe it is midlife.. I am there.. and have many of the same pages bookmarked... still trying to find the source on the container house that supports a family of four and a pet.. hmmm... back to google

mugwump said...

I don't think of this as a mid-life crisis.None of these things represent crisis to me. I think I'm finding answers to questions I didn't know were there. Each aspect makes complete sense to me. I'm just surprised when I add them all up and turn into Jed Clampett.

Portia said...

I'm looking hard at 60 and realizing that limitations are starting to creep in. This horse will probably be my last horse and although she is old and pokey, she' probably what suits me best. This big dog will be my last big dog - won't be able to cope with another 100 pounder. I know I will ride and have dogs as long as I possibly can but it's depressing to realize that I am entering the era of "lasts".

Half Dozen Farm said...

ROFL... "I'm just surprised when I add them all up and turn into Jed Clampett."

Or Clint Eastwood, "Get off my damn lawn!" :)

I'm getting there. I wouldn't call mine a "crisis" either, but I'm not nearly as far along as you are on figuring out where the hell I'm headed.

It all started when my daughter moved out after HS graduation and got married. I realized how short of time I had left with my son (2 years younger than her) and made him go camping with me several times that summer. We had never tent camped before! Lol...poor kid.

Now, he's away at college and I think it's even worse - I feel like I'm blowing in the wind. The funny thing is, I still have a 9 yo and 7 yo at home, so it's not like I'm an empty-nester.

I do have to admit, after driving Suburbans for over 15 years, I bought a little sporty car this spring. Hmmm...maybe it is a midlife crisis, after all that is a sure sign, right?

Barefooter said...

no crisis, just the result of a lifetime of experience and the open mind to let it all cogitate and emerge into your current consciousness. So many people niche themselves into a box and never poke the lid open, Mugs you have given yourself a great gift.

Anonymous said...

Bwahahaha! Jed Clampett and Walt Kowalski...ha ha ha Yes, I am 34 and I am also already these people! I often say to my friends and family that I am no longer suitable to "Urban Life/Living" that I have been feral for too long now and I would 'shoot, shovel and shutup' my neighbours! Ha ha The worst thing you can ever do is lie to yourself as to who you really are...Trying to fake that part of you will only last for so long...I have learned to accept what I am and I am now happy with me :)

Heidi the Hick said...

I am always on the edge of becoming Ellie May Clampett...

Bif said...

Did my little Bif help you realize the wonder of the Nokota horse?

;-)

If you do get one, I will love reading your observations of them. I know I've found a lot of differences with them and the "normal" horses.

They are joy and torture!

:)
Lesli

mugwump said...

Sorry Bif, these park protected horses are very clearly crossed with QH -- genetic tests by owners from the auctions prove it.
I just want to be able to say, "Yup, I git my 'stangs from the Badlands."
I have very specific, yet personal preferences when it comes to my horses. This specific group fit the bill.

foffmom said...

Yes, I wanted to by Roy Rogers. But instead of Jed Clampett, I think I am becoming Oliver Wendall Douglas of Green Acres. A bad farmer with the best of intentions!!!

Cindy D. said...

I personally always thought that Jed Clampett was pretty darn cool. He never got upset about nuthin. When the rest of his family was running around like chickens he was always the one who held things together without holding anyone down.

So if that is who you have become....not such a bad thing. LOL

mugwump said...

Thank you Cindy D. You see? I think he's awesome, I'm just a little taken aback. Call me Jedi Clampett.

Jill said...

I'm lucky to have reached the realization of what I want fairly young. Now it's how to get there.

But isn't that the fun part? It's the journey, not the destination etc.

Calm, Forward, Straight said...

Could be worse Mugs - wasn't Jed(i) Clampett loaded... and I don't mean ammo. ;D

mugwump said...

Calm, forward and straight - I'm afraid I'm the pre-loaded Jedi (sigh). Not so bad though, I think Jed often wished he had never made that shot.

James A Sinclair said...

I think the 'midlife crisis' is when we start seeing through the illusion of the small self that we deeply believe and fear we are and when we can no longer keep up with the facade of the outer illusion we portray to the world.

I agree with what Heather said that it's a realization and I believe its about finding our True Self. Our Infinite Self within is there waiting for us to recognize our oneness with it by turning to it.

We turn to it when we're willing to let go of the illusion of the small self.

James A Sinclair said...
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James A Sinclair said...

I think the 'midlife crisis' is when we start seeing through the illusion of the small self that we deeply believe and fear we are and when we can no longer keep up with the facade of the outer illusion we portray to the world.

I agree with what Heather said that it's a realization and I believe its about finding our True Self. Our Infinite Self within is there waiting for us to recognize our oneness with it by turning to it.

We turn to it when we're willing to let go of the illusion of the small self.

James A Sinclair said...

I think the 'midlife crisis' is when we start seeing through the illusion of the small self that we deeply believe and fear we are and when we can no longer keep up with the facade of the outer illusion we portray to the world.

I agree with what Heather said that it's a realization and I believe its about finding our True Self. Our Infinite Self within is there waiting for us to recognize our oneness with it by turning to it.

We turn to it when we're willing to let go of the illusion of the small self.

James A Sinclair said...

I think the 'midlife crisis' is when we start seeing through the illusion of the small self that we deeply believe and fear we are and when we can no longer keep up with the facade of the outer illusion we portray to the world.

I agree with what Heather said that it's a realization and I believe its about finding our True Self. Our Infinite Self within is there waiting for us to recognize our oneness with it by turning to it.

We turn to it when we're willing to let go of the illusion of the small self.

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